My World, My Thoughts, My Life

voice in the heart....

2009-02-20T06:49:00.000-08:00

Hm...human is a very complicated creature.They may feel good at this moment and the next day will turn to another point of view...well, i assume that 'it's a part of life experiences'. I asked myself once , 'am i a sentimental, emotional gal?' well, i guess i am..i feel that it is happy to help others and put my true heart to help everyone...ya, i always hopes to be like that.

These few months, i was lost... lost my ways, my principle of life. i thought i helped them, but i didn't!! in the end, i put them away from me, i almost lost them...luckily, she din give up me...thank you...i knew , i m wrong...my way of thinking!!! i thought i was right but unfortunately...i can felt the pain in your heart and the suffer u had gone through......once again, i would like to say sorry to you...'my dear sister'......

the second thing is, i had a friend she was so kind...but she always think for others but not to herself...well, seem to be good but the fact is she was suffered...everyone knows that she is kind, that why, some people use her kindness to get benefit.....towards her, i cant say anything...this is her principle of life...She is a good friend and i hope that... she will be treated as how she treats others....

Writing.....

2009-02-19T02:05:00.000-08:00

Well, the first time i went for this class its seem to be fun...but..all of us started feeling stress......we are fresh writer but were putting in a very high expectation by the lecturer...All our writing turn to be useless and meaningless.......we knew that as a writer, we have to face with criticism but not too 'hard' comments...we feel like so irritating and angry!!! why??? we use our heart to write our stories....but seem like the lecturer had turn behind our works...she did commented and corrected our weakness...but i think i should be in another way round!!
I feel pity to my group mate...she feel so embarrass and upset when the lecturer wanted to correct almost the whole story....we knew her situation because we put ourselves in her shoe...anyway, to all classmate!!! we have to enjoy writing and kearn from the mistake...no matter how bad we had been criticize,never look down to our abilities.....gambare!!!!

Shiet Yee's birthday

2009-02-19T01:39:00.000-08:00

In order to celebrate Shiet Yee's birthday, we had make the date came earlier...Her birthday is on the 22/2 but we decided to celebrate it earlier....It was long time ago, we (sot po) all go out together; having dinner, shopping together....it was fun!!! because it helped me to relax myself although for half of the day!!!!Here, i wish to share with you all , the members of 1817's housemates....

This is Shiet Yee!! She is the birthday girl + my roommate + my secondary friend

This is Lin...She is my little sister!! She is so friendly girl...

Ms Tan/ Beng siew...She is my coursemate....She is a playful mouse!!

Happy Birthday...18/1/2009

2009-01-17T09:40:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to my brother 'kok yoong'. Today is his 15 years old birthday, we gave him a big surprise!!! hahahaha...anyway, i m here wishing you that you will success in your studies, be a man who can contribute to the society, don't let mummy and daddy worry!!!! Although i m not that kinda girl who say those SWEET WORDs but what i want to tell u is ' Believe yourself, don't feel stress, just do your best in your studies' seem like we are giving u lots pressure but is for ur sake....Remember, DO your BEST in your PMR!!! Try your best that it!!! Gambare!!!

Meaningful...13 January 2009

2009-01-17T09:24:00.000-08:00

This day become my meaningful day because on this day, i had officially call her ' 妹妹‘.. i feel so happy because in my life i had a sis who can share my tear and joy.. I still remembered that what i had wrote last time in this blog, what is friendship? what is true friend? but i m here to prove to myself and others that ' never give up'...at last i had found one....so, believe yourself that you can make it...although at the beginning the road seem to be so tough to go on, but after u had passed it, the better and wonderful journey is waiting for u at the front!!!
Just to share with u, this 'mei mei' is one of my housemate and at the beginning we seem to play and fool around. But day after day, we built up our friendship, gone through lots of difficulties and we share our tears and joy together... so coincidentally our sir's name also '林‘, v are almost the same characteristic and behavior...I m here to tell that, i feel glad because i had found her...Thank you because you had make me believe there is true friend...谢谢你‘林秋羚‘

* Don't neglect people who care you, and treat other as how you wanted to be treated!!!!

Friendship....

2009-01-09T22:00:00.000-08:00

What is friend? i asked myself again and again..but every time the answer will be different from what i see and expected...iZit becoz i m too 'demanding' and put a high expectation towards them!! I just want a true friend...but what is true friend???? izit those who play, and stick around with you all the time is considered as true friends....hahaha...then, i think all of us also have lots of true friends!!!

Well, just wanna throw my thought and feeling....deep in my heart, i feel that human are so horror and too reality...some people might befriended with others becoz they have high status, rich and they have 'special abilities' than us( in short they are valuable thing in this friendship) !!! Honestly, What a realistic human!!! So far, i had never met so called 'true friend', well this doesn't mean i don't trust that there are no 'true friend' but i just failed to find one!!

At this moment, most of my friend are those passenger friends who stay awhile in my life and then they had gone away and that make me feel bad and wonder why i had such a weak relation with them? At first, i had came to a conclusion that we have to devote ourselves and make contribution in our friendship which it will make the friendship's bone stronger.i always agree this and confident that i will find one...so, i told myself that i will work hard and be my friend's true friend first.Unfortunately, i fell into a deep pain because of this...guess what?? of course being betrayed and used like a silly fellow!! Hm, i really hate myself ....because i feel that i m such a stxxx girl....well, last time, i had a friend who asked me " if there are 10 red roses and 10 white roses, how many roses will you give me?" this question remind me of...' we might put lots of effort in this relationship but we cant hope for the same action from them'....Hm, i dont really want to share what i had gone through but for sure is a bitter experience!!! sometimes, i had lost my confident and hope toward searching true friend. Well, i m not a greedy gal , just one true friend is enough!! Friend that can share laughter, sorrow, exchange opinion and supporting each others when we are in troubles!!! This is TRUE FRIEND!!! remember, to all of you.....A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE NEVER LEAVE YOU WHENEVER YOU FACE PROBLEM, THEY WILL HAND OUT THEIR HANDS AND ENCOURAGE YOU OR ACCOMPANY YOU WHENEVER YOU ARE HAPPY OR SAD!!! what a wonderful friend they are.....

To maintain a friendship is not a problems of distance,although one might be at the west and the other is at the east!!! i treasure my friends with my sincerity, that is why i feel sad and disappointed not because i wanted them to treat how i treated them...is a matter of heart... i cant control them, that is why..i cant only do my best!!! To all my friends...always reflect ourselves...is that we are a true friend to others??? and think of how your friend treat u? learn to appreciate or you will lost lots of them!!!

School life

2009-01-05T23:06:00.001-08:00

My university life started last monday...although this semester, i have to attend 19 creadits a week, but i feel so happy because this is my last semester...I hope to enjoy my last university life...In my journey of education, i had gone through lots of bitter and sweet experiences but now all these experiences had become my past footsteps and my memories...I had gain and growth more in my life than my last time!!! I enjoy studying, learning and mix up with friends....My treasure , my wealth...cant be take out by anyone!!!so, we have to enjoy our life no matter in our working place or in school.....Gambare!!!

Words in my heart

2009-01-02T08:15:00.000-08:00

Haiz...SHE had came to Malaysia and they will perform at the SG wang...Unfortunately, this saturday i cant go there to support them!!Feel so sad...Well, may of you may think i m sot because of SHE but actually, there is a story behind it....In fact, i m wont admire them without reason, it is because they inspired me to take action in my dream..I thought i will have no courage to face my dream because most of the time, i m just only 'say say and then the following day, i will forgot everything.However, after i went to SHE concert in year 2007, they inspired me. really!!i was so touched and it was like a power went into my body and make me full of confident and conviction!! That is why, SHE is not only my idol but they are like my reminder...I hope one day, i can fulfill my vow and resolution that i had make when i m at the concert...Gambare!! SHE, we work hard together!! Wish you all the best for 3/1/2009 event!!!! I will spiritually support you guys...GO GO Jia YOu!!!

Happy New Year!!!!

2009-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR......

Wish daddy and mummy will be healthy year by year;
My siblings will also success in everything they do;
All my friends will become happy and healthy in this year!!!
And to myself;let make this year 2009 a miracle year and memorial year!!!!

Meaning of 'Life'

2008-12-30T09:00:00.000-08:00

Life is like a play,
Each of us is the main character in our life,
We might play as the protagonist character,
or as a antagonist in our play,
It is all depends on our hands and minds,

However sometimes you can't control what is going to happened in our play,
It might appears a character in our play which we never hope to have it in our play
or in contrast, we might waiting for this 'character' to be in our play,
That is why, we are the only one who can make the changes and know what play we are going to produce...
Never let ourselves control by the environment or incidents happened in the play,
We also have to polish our characteristic no matter what happened in the play,
One day, we might be proud that, we have created a wonderful play..(life)...

p/s This is what i want to remind myself and also share to others...never give up life and defeat by obstacles...
We are the protagonist in our play(life)!!! Happy New Year 2009...

High School Outing ( Bukit Cahaya Seri Aman)

2008-12-29T06:54:00.000-08:00

Today,R1 had organized a high school outing at the Bukit Cahaya Seri Aman. That is why, early in the morning i and my members here had to wake up at 5a.m in the morning....gosh, so tiring man!!! Plus it was raining day. When we reached R1 kaikan, the weather is bad and become worse when we reached to Bukit Cahaya!! all the members had to warm up under the raining day..hopefully they wont fall sick after this outing...haha...

me and ngew join this outing as one of the runner but actually we just lepak ourself because every groups had their own group coordinator and they also wont need us...so, guess what??? we go and take lots of pictures and do our own stuffs....

Let me show u some pictures,

This is the warm up session, it was raining

This is the picture taken by shook ying..she like to take pictures....and also some taken by me...i m just play play...haha...

i like this picture

Here is the Empangan Sungai Baru

Secondly, these are my high schools members. i took care of them since they are Juniors....

Jie Yan is the youngest girl among us..hahaha...keep it up..u will be the future star
and successor!!

Carmen had moved to Puchong...I m happy that she able to joined us for this trip..
good luck in ur PMR!!

Erm, first of all...She is my good helper and pure girl.Her name is POH LI...Remember, coz
she always kena bully and smile when she talked to others or others tease her..haaaa

Here, the new YMD (chi Yong), he is a very shy boy but actually the is mature enough
in his thought. He is not like the others (terry and yoong) playful kiddiesss....haha

They are my Brother(kok yoong), terry chong, carmen and poh li. 4 of them are
my previous juniors...Looking at them, i feel proud and happy because they had growth up
and contributes to the gakkai too!! Gambare!!

Lastly; these are my comrades in gakkai....

Our senior, chew ping had joined us also...She had sent us the rice today!! thank you...

This is ngew shook ying. She is my best friend in my life...we share our thoughts and
problems together. Although we always fight, but at the end, we will be alright!!
She helps me alots...thank you so much!!! .

Haha, MEI YEE MEI YEE. She is my Project 50's Pic...She is so geng!!! no one can fight with her.
She will never being bullied by others. haha..but luckily she joined Byakuren so that she will
trains herself to be more polite...hahahahaha.....

Here is the active boy from Honbu 1...He is Khai Pin...He likes to play play and talk jokes
but sometimes people may ignore him. He likes to move his body as well..HAha..

Here is the chee siong, funny ler...he said that he is 'sida'..haha....yayaya...i think
many of u will agree... anyway, he is in charge of the FIrst Aid...

That the end for the sharing...Everyone is tired after the trip..Hope that every members will have gain something
through this trip!!!! The future is belongs to all of u!!!

Junior Division

2008-12-28T08:37:00.001-08:00

My beloved Junior members

Junior group is a place where i found my mission and Junior division is a training place as well for me... I love them ...they are like my own kids....cute and pure in mind!! Hopefully we 'the Junior PIC' can foster them to be successor in gakkai and society!!!

Joyee

little angles

Juniors and PICs at Zoo Negara

28-12-2008

2008-12-28T04:57:00.000-08:00

First of all, it is a good start for me to have my own blog because i always give myself an excuse that i dislike writing, but as a literature student, we have to improve our writings and express our thought on anything we saw in this world...haha, that is why, l created my blog...i hope to share my thoughts and point of view that happened around me or to myself....erm, year of 2008 will be ended soon, I'm thinking here, what i had done for this whole year? am i still the same as the previous me? or i had improved to be a better girl? erm.... my life start to change when i joined mainstream music centre because this centre give me lots of opportunities to perform and gain expereinces on stage. i love singing, however, i had no confidents and always nervous and panic feeling when i m singing in front of audieces.

The first changing i felt to myself is the courage and confident when i was performing. i felt glad and thankful to my teacher and this centre. Besides, they make me move forward and found my way of life....The second changes in myself is i felt that i m thankful to be one of the soka gakkai members. Gakkai is a place to polish myself, my characteristic and train myself. I always think that, without gakkai, i will be nothing more than a girl. Gakkai make me reliaze myself, my mission and give me a plotform to perform as well.... i feel happy and gratitude to those who supported me and guided me as welll.....Thank you sensei!!!

Lastly....in my 2008's resolution, i hope to be a better girl that not only towards my family and friends but also contributes to the society!!!